Not sure if you're going to read this post, but still, I wrote it. HAHA
I know actions speak louder than words, and I'd never done anything for you.
All I ever did was all the talking, but trust me,
I would have done everything for you, if I could.
Or perhaps, if I knew what to do.
I'm actually a very confident person.
But not when it comes to people I really really care about.
Cuz I'm also a super insecure person.
I always think I'm not good enough for you.
I always think you'll get me replaced someday.
Overthinking is the worst.
I don't know how and when we started to drift away.
All I know is that I didn't know how to start the convo again.
Sometimes when I initiate the convo, you don't sound excited.
Like you wanted nothing to do with me.
Maybe that wasn't what you're thinking, maybe I'm just not familiar with your texting style.
But I didn't have enough courage to call you, or to ask again. Used up all my courage tbh.
Now that we are like complete strangers.
Didn't even say hi when we bumped into each other at parties.
Sometimes I wonder what went wrong, and when did it go wrong,
Maybe I couldn't have you back in my life.
Maybe everything has ended for like years.
But I'd never stop caring about you.
I'm sorry if you got annoyed with my birthday text, goodbye text,
Or sometimes text that asking for a hangout, or the "how's life" text.
I just thought maybe if I try harder, things would work out.
I.... I just don't know how to give up on this.
To stop being so annoying,
I think I would stop with the asking-for-hangout-text.
But forgive me with the birthday text haha.
It's hard for me to not wish you happy birthday.
Not just birthday, I wished you to be happy everyday.
I always write blog posts that sounds so pointless.
写到最后都不懂我自己在写什么了. LOL
Anyway, safe flight, good luck, all the best.
Love, always.
