My life now: wake up > class > stay back study > go home slack > study > dota > sleep, repeat.

Seriously. Why promise when you are unsure of whether you can keep it or not. Promises are meant to be kept, I guess you didn't know this. You know what is worse? Is that you created the expectation. I truly wonder if you did this just to double the disappointment. Why do I even care zz. Fuck this shit.

I skype a lot, like really a lot. With so many people, sometimes one to one, sometimes in group. Boys or girls. I love having people on call, having a companion. Cause I hate being alone. Sometimes there will be more than one friend calling & I have to appear offline so that I can talk to the one I like more. 

I remember when you used to call me everyday, I didn't even bother changing my  status to online. Because you're the only one I wanted to talk to. And you would just call me without asking, you knew that I was in front of the laptop even though I appeared offline. You knew that I waited for you. Didn't you? And you used me. You called me because you had no better friend to call. Ok maybe you didn't. I don't know man. Everything is so confusing. It's like I'm important but when I felt so, you just happened to prove me wrong. Was it fun for you to see me suffer? Enough. I said enough but I was hoping that it doesn't end this way. Sien. 

I have been thinking about lotsa things, yet couldn't find someone to talk with. I'd told some people about it, but just about the incident itself, not about what I was/am feeling. Blog & Dayre are too public. So I thought of writing diary. Yeah. HAHA KaiXin was like "What generation are you!?".. 

It had been almost 3 years since I last wrote in my diary & for the same reason I'm starting to write again. I bet you know what the reason is, if not you wouldn't be reading this post. Who would read a long post of someone if they don't know them well? Ok la maybe it's just me who wouldn't be interested in people's long post if I don't know them well.

I wrote so much craps here just to fill the blank beside this photo. Erm... so.... I'll continue writing until it is filled. hehe...

I lose friends easily. & I find new friends after that. Maybe that's why people think I have damn a lot of friends. It's not like finding replacement or what, just that I eventually meet new people. I never hated anyone of them who left. In fact, I love them, still. Altho I tend to not know the reason why they left me.

Sometimes I would think about what had I possibly done wrong that pissed them off. Then there will be too many things that I think I'd done wrong & I'll get all emotional, regretting everything I did. Thinking about how I could have & should have done better.