Woke up in the morning and prepared everything. When I was about to leave, Xue came. We had our breakfast at a restaurant near my house, then we started to go to Kajang. Xue gave me a box of m&m that she bought from US :') Looked delicious. Reached there at around 9, when we were registering, Joey a.k.a. my brother's friend's girlfriend who are going to the same campsite with me came and introduce me some new friends. After the registration, we went to the place where all the buses parked at, was about to cry when I said goodbye to Xue. Got into but bus and met my primary school crush, I wondered if he recognized me. Xue stood in front of the bus until the bus was about to leave, that's really touching. People in the bus was jealous that I have a best friend like this ;) Called Jun & YeeLing to say goodbye. When I was on phone with JunMing, I told him that I wanted to call xxx so badly, that I wanted to listen to his voice for the very last time. JunMing said it's okay to call since it's the last time. So I called, said hello & he said hi. Repeated for a few times & we chatted for few minutes. I already forgot what we said, but I was really happy that time :') CHEAP ME ._. Reached the camp but they didn't take away my phone, met many new friends. Lined up to get our clothes & shoes, 8 shirts, 6 pants, 3 pair of shoes & those belt socks etc etc. Carried them all the way from the store room to the dorm, damn heavy :( Met a very slim girl that couldn't be able to carry those things back, helped her to carry it but until half a boy asked me if I can carry all those thing & he wanted to help, hahah nice boy! Texted with Ying, JunMing & also xxx at night. I cried when JunMing called, I missed everyone. Texted xxx after that, told him that I missed him very much and he got angry, lol.
5th January,
Woke up to a message from him, telling me that 70 days only, very fast one. With smileys ☺☺ Was happy for the whole morning because of the message, heheeh although it's very short. Texted with Fuji in the night, asked him how many days his cousin took to go home by crying, but he refused to answer, bad friend :( Ying called in the midnight, chatted a lot, I was touched hehe.
6th January,
The day to give back my phone, forced myself not to text him, PRIDE PRIDE PRIDE! JunMing everyday also repeat that girl must have pride. Cried when I called my mom & told her that they're taking away my phone already :'( No matter how many times I called my mom, I would cry when I heard her voice. I'd never love her this much, leaving her for two and a half month.
8th January,
A new boy came into our camp, a tall handsome athlete. He was late because he was travelling in Taiwan for the past few days. && he lives at Ampang, near klcc. I'm not a stalker, someone told me these.. He was the tallest in his dorm, every time when we have to line up according to our dorm, people can spot him easily ;) Oh ya! He's in the same dorm with Fidauz, who's that? A mixed malay boy, he's white & blonde! He looked exactly like a foreigner. (Y)
9th January,
A boy came and talked to me, for the second time. I asked him "Honestly, do I know you?" Hahahah sad! An indian boy called me Jacky -.- Had fun here with my new friends, gossiping, chit-chating & laughing non-stop. Wanted to ask dad to get a letter from the hospital to leave this freaking place, but now I began to hesitate, what if I left and they had fun, I'll jealous. Hahahah complicated mind. Canlian said that we began to accept this place already, but we all refused to admit :3
One of my dorm mate left because she has asthma. ST & I cried, although we weren't close with her but when she looked at us with the eyes that's full of tears, we just couldn't help but cried. She said she didn't want to go home & she liked this place. Hahahah we're jealous :( She left us a poem, couldn't understand it well because it's written in bm. At night, heavy rain. Thought about my comforter & cried, hahahah crazy.
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冲了个暖暖的热水澡, 觉得这一个星期发生的事情就好像梦一场.
冲了一个星期的冷水澡, 吃了一个星期难吃的食物, 哭了一个星期, 也疯了一个星期.
才一个星期, 却好像过了一年一样, 每天的生活都跟着时间表走, 唯一的乐趣就是和朋友们胡闹.
在营里空闲时会想很多, 想有些事情不愿发生却不得不接受, 有些人不可失去却不得不放手, 人生就是充斥着各种承受, 你不想承受的承受. 就像去国民服务营是我不愿意却又不得不接受的一样. 盈盈让我在这三个月努力地让自己进步, 我听了. 偶尔撑不下去时就会想想他, 然后继续加油. 三个月不见, 希望三个月后能让他刮目相看. 其实我很想知道, 他到底喜欢怎么样的女生, 怎样的我能让他更想念. 每次想念的时候忍住不找他, 不想让自己看起来过于卑微. 他们说这三个月是忘记他最好的机会. 记得有人告诉过我, 不要把第一个目标放太高, 因为那样就很难找到第二个了. 我放在第一位的那个男生, 高度学历运动家世样样都好. 总是会忍不住拿他来跟其他男生做比较, 而他又总是毫无疑问地获胜. 再这样下去就要单身久久了, 嘻嘻. 周杰伦有句歌词 “也许时间是一种解药, 也是我现在正服下的毒药.” 离开的这段时间, 可能忘记也可能更喜欢. 看吧, 忘得了就忘, 忘不了就继续喜欢呗. 朋友们, 期待吧, 我现在喜欢运动, 因为我要腹肌, 哈哈哈. 有腹肌的女生最美了 :)
I wonder how's 14 now.
Will be back after weekssS, stay tuned!
